In 2012, I did TTC.  I enjoyed my time at TTC - in particular, i enjoyed doing seva. Being useful.
But i did not like anything about TTC sessions.

There was nothing to remember for me. Having faith on teacher was stressed quite a bit.

After 3 years, I am utterly confused in every aspect of my life.

why? I don't know.
If you ask me, what you like? I dont know.
If you ask me, what you want to do?  I don't know.
If you ask me, what will make you happy? I don't know.
If you tell me to do something, I will not feel confident.
If you tell me to be quickly respond, I will not be quick.
If you tell me to be part of organization and work for someone, I will resist.

This is after doing all the meditations.